Showing posts with label ice. Show all posts
Showing posts with label ice. Show all posts

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Snow Walk

More snow today.  The big fat fluffy kind that sticks to everything.  I had to be out in it, even though the streets are treacherous, especially for someone who can't see over the small mountains of snow accumulated at intersections, crosswalks, and corners.

A little tour of the neighborhood.  The sky was completely gray, almost white.  The boughs of the trees are inky black and frosted in white icing.



There is something about a large snowfall like this that changes people.  I wasn't the only one walking about with a camera.  The appearance of everything changes so drastically.  And then there's the physical difficulties that the snow creates.  Huge puddles of slush at the crosswalks.  Or crosswalks that have been buried in mounds of snow.  Uneven, unstable paths of packed snow from many feet.  People just have to be more patient.  You wait for the person in front of you to negotiate the narrow pathway.  You can't push ahead, because there is no room to do so.  You have to walk around snow piles to get to an area that's not inundated in slushy snow water in order to cross the street.   Nothing is simple or clear cut.  I think that provokes some childlike qualities in the city.  For instance, the childlike need to lay claim to...oh let's say...shoveled out parking spots.

"Dat's my spot!"
"Na-uhhhh."
"Uh-huhhh"
"My spot, see.  I'm saving it with this here chair."

I believe in the sacredness of the Chicago chair system.  I know there are many who do not agree.  But as long as I can remember, there was the chair.  I don't drive any more, but walking past a chair setting in the snow, makes me smile.  There's a twisted, desperate logic to it that I can appreciate.

Paths cut through two-feet high snow, remind me of building forts out of blankets and chairs.  I remember dismantling the bed and using the mattresses and the pillows and the chairs to create these fantastic tunnels.  Little cozy enclosed spaces...


Then wide open ones.  Reaching the lake, it all opens up until it feels closed, because you can barely tell the difference between the lake and the sky.  They are both a gray-green.  And the lake water has a layer of slushy ice.  Like a giant Lake Michigan flavored Slurpie.  And there are little trails in it, as if a duck pushed its way through the slushy ice.  The lake has soft little swirls of white ice like a green marble.


And don't forget the trees.  The weeping willows are orange.  Their leaves hang down like soft flames flickering against the frozen sky.  Their fringe frames the lighthouse.

The weeping willows don't look sad in the winter at all.  They look like a fantasy.  I picture fairy princesses regal in their gowns, traipsing about under the fringes, highly aware of their beauty.  The trees themselves, could care less.


Saturday, January 29, 2011

Icy Sestina



Even in the winter, there are waves.
The movement of water is difficult to stop.
Even when the lake is covered with large scales of ice--
seemingly static and unmoving, listening carefully, you can hear
the relentless movement of water, pushing, shoving,
thrusting forward, slamming up against the frozen waterline.



I’ve always loved it, when a man kisses me at my hairline.
He’s really brushing against the waves
of my burdens--shoving
aside my insecurities with his lips--stop
ing my incessant self-criticism mid-thought, forcing me to hear
the beat of my own heart.  The ice


underneath the surface is fragile. Ice
is like that.  There’s no telling what’s actually below the waterline.
--all the mixed messages; desire...to crush, to melt, to conquer, to be conquered ...you hear
it underneath the silence of ice; the constant conversation of waves
which, so far as I know, never stop--
always continue their jockeying and shoving...


Buddhists attempt to stop all the shoving.
Better to be still like ice.
Accept whatever state you are in.  Stop
the wheel of desire.  Step to the waterline
and drink.  Ride waves.
But most importantly,listen.  Because you might hear


the precise moment when the ice fissures and the heart opens.  I hear
great tectonic plates of ice shoving
through, creating a path, dragging the detritus, along with everything good, on waves
of love.  Remember that ice
is merely another form of water.  And the coastline
is where the water finally comes to a stop;


a rest.  This is where the pitch of the song is stopped
and the change can be heard.
The truth of things comes out at the coastal line--
the fact that I don’t want to shove
or jockey for position.  I’d like to lay, not like the iceberg, formidable and foreboding, but like the ice
that’s melting and in the process of becoming something softer, to eventually ride the waves


travelling to the edge of the waterline.  Getting rest at that stop
to ride the waves again and again. Listening to that music you can hear
underneath the shoving and desire.  And finally, for a while anyway, put the fear on ice.

© 2011 Germania Solórzano